Just me!

Mr Ronald

Here on the foto you can see one of my friends here!
His name is Ronald and he is from the united states! He is a staff worker for YWAM and he works in the girls house!Hes doing a real great job becouse the girls many times are badly treated by man and have no fathers or had realy bad fatherfigures. This makes that the girls have only bad idears about man and dont trust them at all... Others think their only wurth is to give sexual pleasures to man so their whole lives runs around this.

Ronald now is the big brother to these girls and he is absolutely helping those girls to get restored in their way of thinking about man and themselfs! I admire him for this... In the picture you can also see some of the girls of the house. Who are just sweet girls when you meet them but they all are in a proses of restauration. but well im am also in a restauration proces and many other people so dont think weird about these girls...

But now why do i write about Ronald??
Well i write about him becouse he needs some help... This great guy is extremely in love with a brazilian girl also YWAM staff and shes in love with him and so they want to get married... But becouse they both are YWAM missionarys they dont have money and they dont have a big group of people to support them. So now it becomes so difficult for them to get married! I myself wanted to help him with the extra money i had and blessed him with some. But they stil need a much bigger amount of money...
He said he willneed 8000 REAL so Thats about 2500 Euros and he is almost at 1500 REAL. (500euro)

So now my question to you readers is that if you maybe have some money left and you want to give it away maybe you were thinking about sponsering me. Well then i would like you to pray about it if you maybe can bless Ronald instead of me...
If you do want this then you can send me an email... then i could give you my bank acount number or maybe Ronalds (although he doesn´t know about this action for him)
Lets surprise him with lots of love from God! through people that are far away and he doesn´t even know...

or maybe you dont like this at all
Well thats okey its just an idear do with it what you want!

Just a little bit about me!

This is the slogan of my DTS...
And i didn´t know it was going to come back to me so many times!

I want to tell you all a litle bit about me now...
Something more deep then just the outside! This week we had a heavy week! The subject was Counseling victems of abuse and Loss! many sudents from the school went through abuse earlyer in their lives and so many people received heeling this week... Also loss brought up a lot of emotions many people lost their parents or special friends. We stood still by this and learned from every single situation.

But what has this to do with me?
I didn´t went through abuse... Only people not respecting me when i was young but that didn´t give any wounds. I also didn´t loose any one close to me jet... But something strange happened with me when we were doing diffrent excersices to help each other in heeling! One thing we did for example was that one person was on a chair in the middle blindfolded. Then we as group we did things like hugging that person or giving massages etc. without words giving love to that person!
Well what hapended to me that i right away had a self defense system ready! I didn´t want to be in the middle and i didn´t want to help anybody! i just didn´t want people to get close to me!
And when we talked about loss... the teacher let us write down the 4 most important people, four thing we wanted to become, four favourite hobbys or thing you lik to do in free time and 4 favorite things!
then we had to choose the four less important things. those we could keep all the rest was ript to peases. We just lost all those things and hen we had to talk about how we feel about it! Well for me my defence was back up right away. I didn´t have any emotion what ever and was just cold just take it all!

But then later i started talking about this to people... And i am slowly getting to an understanding why i do this! it seems that i dont alow my emotions becouse i dont want to be week! i have had a lot of self pitty when i was younger. what gave me nothing but trouble. So now i dont want to be sorry for myself anymore and dont want to be week no more! So i just block all emotions and do as if it does´t do me nothing but thats not realy healthy...

It also has to do with my life style... The loosing you´re life for Jesus also gives pain but i dont alow myself to feel a thing. Then the rest of the verse tells about finding life in Jesus but i dont alow Jesus to bless me or give me back anything. becouse i have the idear that if i have something that then i would have to give it up again!

This also works with people around me! i kind of keep people a litle bit away from me just so that i doesn´t hurt me much when i have to give then up again! But this is not healthy! S i thank God that he brought me to this course. this school where i would learn to understand this pease of me... Now i dont know je how to fix this but im going to work on it!

Some of the boys!

Here are some of the younger boys that live in the Restauration house... Most of the boys that live there have a realy difficult past. They come from the streets and poor families with all that is a part of that...

One of these boys is just new in the house maybe he lives here two weeks now but hes doing very well! and it seems that he is realy enjoying it! For me thats not difficult to understand becouse yeah for sure i dont want to live on the street but for these boys its realy a hard choise! For them its not so natural to live in a house and specialy all the rules they have to listen to and the chores they have to do!

All kind of games

The idear of the kids day was that we were going to split up in teams of twelf and then do a six kamp(dont think thats a good english word) i was one of the leaders of team blue but we didn´t win... we had a lot of joy in doing all the games and thats realy what matters!

there where all kind of games to do like diving up things that where on the bottom of the swimmingpool and so on but what i liked most was the brazilian way of playing Snoephappen... They mak it even harder for you to get candy becouse first you have to dip your head in to the watter and then get the candy out of a thing full of flour
so you get all white out of it

you can see some pictures

National day for the kids

Yeah aint that funny!!

In Holland we know fathersday and we know mothersday. And then they also have a b irthday with it so two times in a year hey have a party! In Brazil they thought this wasn´t fair becouse the kids then only have a birthday once a year... So they decided to have a national kids day every year. Everybody gets a day of from school and work so they can spend time with their kids...

We of Jocum work with children and so we also wanted to be part of this day! to make it a blessing for the children. So in our community center they planned a special day for the kids. Last thursday was the big day and well there were 150 kids to entertain

Kids Day!!

Blessing the Kids!

Through many financial belssings from Holland i could strat in Giving litle things to the kids that live in the houses over here... Im lookig for many diffrent ways to give a litle help!

So one of the things i recently could do is buy a new Pool set for the boys in the restauration house. Most of these boys are ex-street boys and if they behave well in the house then after a while they are aloud to use the pool table...
But well its not much fun if the balls arent round anymore and the sticks are broken. So for 80 reals i bought new pool balls and sticks... thats about 28 euros so its not a big price but it gives a lot of joy to the boys!

They all like the game a lot and are extremely good in it!
I played some games with them but most of the time i loose

COSTUME PARTY

We had a realy fun party last weekend...
Together with around 50 people of the base we went barbequing and were dancing a lot! Every body had to get dressed up weird and that brought a lot of joy and laughs!
i went like well how should i describe it probably the best is a crossing between a rich getelman and a Rap artist you can see me in the picture...
The other pictures are some costumes of the other people!

Homework

Here is a picture of me in action!!

If you would be in Brazil with me at this moment. Then this is a great picture of how you would see me... Almost every moment that i am awake. I am buzzy studying... Some of you may laugh, Wouter studying? Yeah and that even during the brakes and every minute that i am free!

I am buzzy making my project... It doesn´t have to take so much time, but then i have a bigger project then most of the people and also i want to make it perfect and realy clear. This project is my dream so i want to work it out as far as possible and it gives me great joy to do it!

But i will be glad hen i got it all writen down becouse then i can focus on other things! like having fun and being a friend to other people!
maybe spend more time online!!

Futieball

Thuesday evening i went with some of the guys to see a futieball match!
Atletico was playing against Guarani. And Atletico is one of the teams from Belo Horizonte... I think i was lucky becouse they won with 4-1 so i saw many goals and everybody was happy!
and even crazy becouse on the way back home the supporters that were in the same bus as me decided to demolisch the bus... They broke one of the windows and opened the emergency exits to climb to the roof! Then they would climb on it and start dancing on the driving bus!

You guys are pobably thinking wow that Wouter is having a great time there... One day he goes to a concert and the next day he goes to soccer matches! looks like a vacation... does that guy have to much money or something?
Well let me tell you that this all just cost me 10 reals what is about 3 euros!!
Im just realy lucky!

Missionary live is great!! Help me remind this time when im going trough a dessert period!!

Walking to school

BUZZY BUZZY

WOW Guys!
There its happening allready! Im getting so buzzy that some things like writing my blog is getting harder. I have been working and studying the whole week and this weekend... Lukely now i have at least the most important parts ready.

But Yesterday i got realy crazy from all we have to do...
We have to make our weekly Journal
We had to do a bookreport
we have to set up our own project
we have to do some homework

And then next to that i still need to write you guys a newsletter and keep my personal contacts in tact...
Yesterday i thought i could have never made it in time but then now that i just went doing it one thing at a time and that makes me much more positive...

Plus that yesterday in the evening i decided to just to some things outside of school and asked some guys if they wanted to go with me to the cinema! So we had a nice evening of and at least for some time diffrent things in mind

This evening im going to Englisch church so that wil also strenghten me

HIV AIDS

Week Three we talked about HIV/AIDS...
It was realy a sad week for every body! We all got realy quiet and went into our litle corners! Its realy not nice to here all information about how fast the virus is spreading and how people die from it and also how people from everywhere in the world react to it...

one of the most difficult things to understand is that how can the world just live on as if nothing is happening... We dont even have to wait much longer or everybody will know someonewho has HIV. And then how said is it that a mother can give HIV to her child while brest feeding or in its woomb where God is creating this child

God cries bigtime for the world.

It proves very well that humans run away from difficult things. If i am honnest then i just want to run far away from it and forget about this week and just go on with my life... But then i know that i just cant do that... some people need to help!